I'm writing this from my car repair experience from hell. I have quite literally run out of work to do and finally decided to dedicate my rage and my time into this blog again. I've run out of anything else to do after all. I can't quite place where I ended the last blog or what I have done for nearly all of May and now most of June but I guess the goal is to update.
May rolled around and school was finally over and all the kids graduated. This means that all of the last of my friends finally graduated and either stuck around for the summer or decided to get a job and leave Columbia, the city of dreams. Even though graduation pictures with my friends was a blast, it did really highlight all the people that were leaving and all the people I had lost those last few months.
Graduation day I ended up crying. Not because I was oh, so proud of my friends but because I felt cheated. Not having a real graduation, not being able to graduate with friends, having a definitive moment I can call my graduation kind of hurt. I wanted a whole ceremony, I wanted the stress, I wanted the recognition for one more time in my life. It was easy having an online ceremony but it wasn't memorable. Anyway, I found myself trying to play off that I wasn't hurt for the entirety of that ceremony.
Post graduation I've dedicated all my time into working. Am I having a great time? No, not at all. Am I keeping it together? Yes, but only when I'm healthy in mind and body. Turns out when you're not doing well mentally your physical health can deteriorate with it. I actively had a crisis mid- May on how much work I was facing and my tonsils went to hell.
Come mid- June I have another health breakdown and my throat was sealed for a week. I just today got over that (writing this a week from getting my car fixed). Overall, I can't say I'm necessarily handling this whole adult workload thing well, this is my first summer working after all and it has bummed me out almost every moment of every day. But that's okay. Work now and enjoy life later, that's all I'm hoping for.
Now that I'm healthy again and I've confirmed to myself that I don't have mono, I am ecstatic to finally have some fun after working the first two months of summer. I don't have much to report on but hopefully I will come beginning of July. I will be heading to New Jersey next week with my family on our classic family vacation and then I'm headed back up to Vermont to visit one of my close friends. Hopefully I'll get a chance to visit Olivia in Clearwater at some point this summer as well, and Sam in Colorado.
I am so excited to see where the summer takes me and have high hopes for the rest of the summer. We can only hope my health maintains and I keep a positive outlook. That's all you can really do, after all.
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